Life is a blank canvas that is given to us all. We decide what to do with it, we can paint it the way that we see fit, dark clouds or sunshine. Life is tough never easy, if it was easy what would have been the point of living then? We must live our lives to the fullest, love with both our heart and soul. By being an honest person also makes you a very respected one.

 

So many nights have passed that I have cried myself to sleep, so many tears have rolled down my cheeks but no matter what happens, they still flow freely. With every single tear shed I have grown into a stronger person than before. Life has taken me on a very rough ride, thought me some valuable lessons. Depression, anxiety and insecurities made me a person that I did not want to be, but if I had not gone through those stages I would not have become the person I am today. A great friend once told me that only I can fix myself, that only I can be in control of my life. By taking this advice and taking control of my life I changed it for the better. My fears and doubts are still present, but I can deal with them better now.

 

Sometimes I tend to be overly sensitive, but that is who and what I am, I refuse to change for any one other than myself. Life is filled with disappointments but I believe that everything happens for a reason, one that might be unclear to us but one that has a lesson to be learned. Every person that we meet is also sent on our paths for a reason, one that will at the end also teach us something.  

To live in tomorrow and the future has never seemed to be working for me as it brings unnecessary worries and fears. I live in the now, I enjoy every moment and I take happiness and sadness as it is dealt to me. I don’t live in the future but I do plan for it…

 

By going through the pains of life you learn. By taking control of your life and dealing with your problems you can achieve a lot. I finally got my life on track and I intend on keeping it that way. I love with my soul, mind and heart. I give my entire self to the person I am with and I will never give up. I am the one that loves the most and gets hurt the most. Maybe one day I will be blessed with the love of my life, the person I can share my soul with, the one I can grow old with. My love is stronger than I ever thought, so strong that it can even overpower me at times.

 

I love what I am doing in my life currently, hospitality. I am living out my passion and that is treating people and giving them a great time, making them happy and ensuring they eat amazing food. I devote my entire life to my friends and my family as they are always there when I am in need. I am also very different in my own unique way, I am not the typical gay guy as I have morals and standards that I firmly believe in. Some people may think of me as being unapproachable when they first see me, but I tend to leave the opinion up to them, they can either go on the assumptions they might have or rather get to know me for who I really am. I believe in honesty and that a person can go far in life for being honest. I have known a lot of hurt and sadness in my life, I have cried so many tears that I can fill the oceans, but yet I love life. All I need in life is to be happy and succeed in what I do, job and love wise. I am a very deep and creative person, I put all my feelings into writing. “I am who and what I am, NOT who I am forced to be…”

 

Always love and appreciate the one you are with, even if you might have doubts, fears and insecurities. You never know when you might lose them. Just remember that person was sent on your way with a reason, one you will never know. Giving your soul for your other half, without expecting anything in return. Each breath you take, every thought filled with nothing more than love. Never let past hurt and sadness influence you as it is only there to destroy your current state of mind, life is short and when it’s over, you might regret certain mistakes… Life is precious and worth living. Days might seem dark but remember the sun makes it light even during storms, and at night there is the moon that does the same even though it might not be seen, it is always there… Take it from me, I have been in a dark hole, but with love and friendship I got out... Just believe in yourself and those around you who have the courage to stick by you through your dark times...

 

Live life without regrets, only with love and always believe…